If you don’t succeed, try what does

This is an old proverb that has been a world’s wisdom, and used as a reliable quote for many to attain success. As it has helped many, it has also been seen as a remedy to live a resilient and persistent way of life, but with that, the opportunities still became an obstacle when those dreams weren’t meant to be for everyone, but for the ones it was meant for.

When I believed in things that I thought was meant for me, I knew I had the potential, but my efforts were in vain as i later realized that those dreams weren’t meant to be. That wasn’t my pathway. The energies weren’t aligning up for me to operate in. So I decided to move in a new direction.

There were many instances, I was basically a professional student taking up courses that didn’t stick, or something had happened where I couldn’t finish out the semesters. Life was happening, and in no way am I making excuses, I just would notice that those situations always had reasons behind them, and it was all making sense. It’s easier to say this currently, as what I’m doing now gave me the clear picture of my purpose by the Divine’s design for my life.

In saying this, most of us have desires from our hearts to do many different things that come from our egos, or what we can do naturally. As a child, I wanted to be everything, but what I could do, that I was fully aware of was, art and dancing. Those were the two things that made me happy the most. But there were things that I desired like, being a lawyer, a graphic designer, a director, an actress, and the list goes on and on. But later on I was working in the nursing field as an aide, and I was guided there not by my own desires, but to provide for my family.

In that line of work, I never felt successful or appreciated, but I did find the joys of working with the patients and making friendships, but the negative side was that it was definitely a difficult position with a low pay wage for the work involved. Looking back on it, I see why the Divine had me in that career. It was more than me, but for the lives that I would encounter, and the service that I provided. I am forever grateful it was on my path, but not the vision. My ego didn’t want that for me, but the Divine used me for it.

The tools were there for my situation, and the jobs came a dime a dozen, so I’d mainly stay employed. That was the succession of it, it was the experience that was needed. I would continue to try and find what I was meant to do and achieve in my life. I was hitting all dead ends because the goals from my ego kept failing me. Nothing was working out. I’d continue on working to find the next things that I thought I aligned with. I surrendered and finally gave up. The last time that I’d try to go through with physically attending a college became my last.

One day the Divine had given me the clear message to write. I took that as I need to go to college to do so, and took an online course for Tech Writing. I passed it and actually finished it, but never used it for anything. I never did the freelance work either. I misinterpreted the message. The Divine needed me for a greater purpose. Not by my ego, but for the mission of God’s.

So this is currently what I was called to do and I’m working with the energies that I’ve overcame, and that I now feel familiar with. I believe that what the Divine calls us for, is to surrender, and ask what does God need us for? This is the “trying” in the trials and errors. Some of us have careers that we have successions in, but aren’t fulfilled. We’ve exhausted ourselves in trying to make our own happiness. Only God can provide that in working with our higher source. It’s is safe for me to say, that being productive for the Divine is well worth the wait, and I’m happy to have the opportunity to be employed by my higher power. That to me is the greatest alignment and energy to be in, and that is what makes me successful from my endless efforts, by finally trusting in God.